What do I need to forgive myself for? TW

I need to forgive myself for all the things I couldn’t control.

For escaping our toxic family dynamic and leaving my siblings behind.

For not reaching out to check in on others when I could barely check in on myself.

For not being able to protect my brother from a situation neither of us could control, and remember it wasn’t my responsibility to do so.

For being awkward, spirited, and imperfect.

For all of my mistakes and the things I regret.

For not having a body compatible with an easy pregnancy.

For not being able to deliver my son breathing.